“Modern women have been told that we can be anything we want -
an astronaut, the head of an Internet company, a stay-at-home mom.
There aren’t any rules. Choices are endless.
And apparently, they can all be delivered to your door.
Is it possible that we’ve gotten so spoiled by choices
that we’ve become unable to make one?
That we know that once you choose something,
one man, one great apartment, one amazing job,
another option goes away?
Are we a generation who can’t choose just one from column ‘A’?
Did we have too much to handle, or was Samantha right?
can we have it all?”

From Sex and The City – “All or Nothing.” I can relate to this quote so much. I am terrible with making decisions when I have a choice between something or another. Always have been. I’m talking choices from big to small. I am afraid of making a bad choice, a wrong choice, or a choice that I can’t undo. I’ll avoiding making the decision until the decision is made for me, maybe because that way I won’t feel at fault if I later don’t like what the outcome is. Truthfully when I can’t come to a decision on 2 or more things, it is because a part of me wants both, or all. Like right now, I have no idea where I want to live the rest of my life. I hate Indiana for the most part, but I would still be sad to leave because I have friends and family here.  I feel like I need to stay here to help take care of my mom. I think about moving back to South Carolina, but when? I want to explore other places too.  When exactly do I want to move, have kids? What part time job do I want to have until I want to get through school? Hell, what school do I want to finish at anyway? Plus many other things. I wish just one or the other could make me happy, but it’s just not working out that way. I feel like if I can’t have it all, then I don’t know what I want. I need to figure out a way to be happy with one decision and learn how to confidently make it without freaking out about the other option.