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Drama Queen

Oct24

Drama Queen

She lives her life just like a sponge
She likes to absorb reaction to her lies
Her eyes convey a sort of sadness that’s not real
It’s just a mask she likes to wear

Drama queen on a string
See her dance, hear her sing
Her lies for you today
Drama queen on a string
See her dance, hear her sing
Her lies for you today

Please do not think that I have no pity for you
But it’s not the kind of pity that you want
The mask you wear is just like glass
It’s so easy to see through and easy to break

Drama queen on a string
See her dance, hear her sing
Her lies for you today

Drama queen on a string
See her dance, hear her sing
Her lies for you today

Blogs I Love

Oct22

I follow many great blogs and I think I am going to start linking some of them, just because I want people to check them out. In no particular order, here are just a few of the awesome bloggers that I follow with their awesome blogs. Just because. Check them out!

Adios Barbie

Clarissa’s Blog

ExtraSmall.me

My Inner Chick

The Bloggess

xoJane

Ditz-Revolution

Express Yourself

Oct17

Every one in a while I reminisce via Youtube old songs that I used to like when I was little. I somehow came upon Madonna’s Express Yourself and it struck me. I was only five years old when this song was released and hit popularity so  I never really understood or cared what the song was about. I just knew it was a catchy song.

This time I listened to the lyrics and what they meant and I have to say that this is probably one of the most empowering messages in a pop song I have ever heard.

“The ultimate thing behind the song is that if you don’t express yourself, if you don’t say what you want, then you’re not going to get it. And in effect you are chained down by your inability to say what you feel or go after what you want. No matter how in control you think are about sexuality in a relationship there is always the power struggle… always a certain amount of compromise. Of being beholden, if you love them. You do it because you choose to. No one put the chain around this neck but me. I wrote ‘Express Yourself’ to tell women around the world that pick and choose the best for yourself, before that chain around your neck, kills you instead. Its my take on how man can express what they want, the same prerogative should be there for a woman too.” – Madonna

So basically this song is about encouraging women to express what they really want out of a relationship, whether it be sexually or emotionally. That they deserve to have what they want and if their partner is unwilling to listen, communicate, or compromise then it’s not in the cards and they need to move on.

I think this is often what a lot of women struggle with at some point during a relationship with someone. Many of them don’t even realize the importance of this in order to maintain a healthy relationship.

It’s true that you don’t seem to understand a lot of ideas in songs until you experience something that puts you in a position to relate to what they are singing about. This song holds very true for myself. What about you?

Oh well, whatever, nevermind.

Sep29

This week marks the 20th anniversary of Nirvana’s second studio album called Nevermind. Yes, you heard right. 20 years ago.

I was a teen in the late 90s. I didn’t even discover who Nirvana was until…1996 I think. I was kind of a sheltered kid, growing up listening mostly to pop and R&B music, so I had never heard of them until I turned on the radio that was playing Smells Like Teen Spirit. That song and the Nevermind album changed rock music and it changed my adolescence. More actually, it possibly was the thing that jumpstarted by adolescence.  I heard their songs on the radio. Loved it, had to have it. I went out and bought Nevermind and listened and fell in love. Not long after I bought the CD, I discovered it went missing from my CD collection. Curiously  I started searching the house for it and I found it underneath my mom’s car seat a few days  later. I took it back and confronted her about why she confiscated it.  She told me she didn’t like me listening to angry music by a guy who was a drug addict and suicide case. I couldn’t blame her, actually. I mean I was only like 13. I told her that I didn’t care about all that he did and how I just liked the sound of their music, which was true. She kinda nodded her head in slight understanding while I returned the CD to my collection.

You know a lot of people argue that Nirvana only became so popular because of Kurt’s tragedy. I don’t necessarily think this is true. I think this band still would have been legendary if he was still alive and they were still together. There was something different and unique about them, and to this day I can’t really think of any other band quite like them. This album still remains such a prominent staple of my teen years and I hate it to think of how crappy most of the popular rock bands of today are. When are we going to have another great band to change rock history? I’m still waiting.

What music album or song is most memorable to you from your past? 

What is home to me?

Sep27

Yesterday’s topic on The Daily Post was this:

What does “home” mean to you? How would describe what it feels like to feel “at home”? It may be something specific about the physical details of where you’d like to live, or it could be more about how you feel when you are in the right place.

I found this topic particularly fitting for me right now, as I am about to move to another place I want to call home.

Having been through so many moves in my life, for reasons of all kind, reasons for good, bad, and the down right ugly… I have collected some specific thoughts and ideas as to what I consider a home.

To me, a home is a place of solace and peace.

A place where I feel free to do as I please.

A place where I approve of who enters or stays and any roommates have stable income and help financially with rent and bills so I won’t have to worry if we are going to make rent because someone else isn’t pulling their own weight.

Where any roommates are nothing but responsible, trustworthy friends that I can get along with and live with without many conflicts.

My home is easily kept clean.

My home is quiet most of the time.

A place that is safe from thieves, drug dealers, and people I don’t trust in general.

A place where my cat can run around if he pleases.

A place where when something breaks, I can call the landlord and they will come out and fix it in a reasonable time.

My home is free from noisy neighbors.

A place that is away from neighborhood crime, or safe enough to where I can walk down the street without having to worry about my safety.

A place where visitors respect our boundaries and don’t overstay their welcome, eat our food without permission, or dirty up our place without picking up after themselves before they leave.

A place where I have enough space for myself and my belongings.

A place where there aren’t so many people living with me that I feel like I am in their way or like they are in mine.

A place where I am neither treated like a child or have to act as a mother.

A place where I can come home to and know what to expect.

Those are probably the important ones.

What is your ideal type of home environment? 

Women are so hard on themselves

Sep21

When it comes to their bodies, most women are extremely critical. It baffles me every time I see this. And what gets me is that usually these are women who are deemed as attractive by today’s standards. They are verbally ripping apart every little flaw with themselves that they see, and I often think they are imagining things because I never even see what they are talking about.

I remember about a year ago when I did the MAX calendar contest (wow, I can’t believe it’s been a year already), I was backstage with all of the rest of the calendar girls and we were getting ready to do our swimsuit competition. We were all prepping in the mirrors before getting called out to go on stage and every single girl was trashing her body. “I need to do something about this double chin.” “All I need is a boob job and I’ll be happy.” “I hate my thighs.”  They all seemed to take turns picking out their flaws. Yes,  these ladies were all doing it! I couldn’t believe it. Then it got quiet as a few of them looked at me. I was looking in the mirror but in the reflection I could see them looking at me waiting to hear what I had to complain about. I said, “You girls are all hot, stop it.” I heard one of them ask, “So you’re not worried about how you look out there?” I just shook my head no.  I felt almost out of place at that moment. Fortunate to make peace with myself but also felt sorry for them.

A lot of women obsess over their looks, in part, because they fear they won’t be accepted, by either males or some other part of society. But here’s one thing I have noticed that I know for sure, men aren’t seeing what you are freaking out about! They aren’t nearly as critical about the female form as women are themselves. How often do you hear a guy picking at a girl’s thigh dimples? Men just don’t care care that much. They care if a woman they like is fit enough to be healthy and takes care of herself. But if she is slightly overweight, has a little bit of cellulite, or something minor like that, he’s not going to care and that is if he even notices it at all. So there’s no need to keep the lights off all the time, ladies. If your man is with you, he already thinks you look good and he would rather see you with the lights on and when he does, he’s thinking about how sexy you are, not about that teeny bit of cellulite you might have. He doesn’t expect you to be flawless, so why keep expecting that out of yourself?

Halloween Costume Ideas

Sep17

Like a lot of people, I love the Halloween season. The candy and costumes are fun! Dressing up isn’t just for kids these days. I love thinking of ideas for costumes and the whole fantasy and role playing aspect of it, even if I don’t end up actually doing anything for Halloween. So here are some costumes or character ideas that I am currently in love with.

There are a few variations of the Cleopatra look out there, and I honestly can’t decide on my favorite, but I would definitely require a head piece, strappy heels, and a snake armband.

Inspired by the Cleopatra idea, I have always loved the look of belly dancer costumes.

I have also always had a thing for masquerade ball costumes.  Mine would be a floor length, flowing gown, with sequins of course.

What little girl hasn’t always wanted to be a mermaid?

Forget Catwoman. Poison Ivy is such a hot evil character.

What would you want to be for Halloween?

Video Blogging Intro

Sep4

 

 

I am still getting used to talking to myself in front of the camera and hopefully in future videos I will be more comfortable.

Also I forgot to mention that I will be trying out different ideas as far as video ideas instead of just me blabbering about stuff all the time. Hopefully they won’t be too boring haha.

 

Movie Review: Something Borrowed

Sep3

Warning: Spoiler alert


I recently saw the movie called Something Borrowed and decided to do a little review, of sorts, and open up discussion. The movie stars Kate Hudson (as Darcy) and Ginnifer Goodwin (as Rachel) and are best friends who grew up together. Rachel is a lawyer who met her crush, Dex (played by Colin Egglesfield) in law school, but she assumes someone as hunky as him would never go for a girl like her so she doesn’t pursue him romantically. Rachel introduces Dex to her best friend Darcy, an outgoing go getter, who wastes no time in snagging Dex for herself. Rachel hides that their budding romance bothers her since she still has feelings for Dex. A few years later, Darcy and Dex become engaged and Rachel is her maid of honor.  Darcy throws Rachel a surprise 30th birthday party where Rachel blurts out to Dex in private that she used to have a thing for him in law school. Dex is stunned by this and he then, after a few drinks, kisses Rachel in a taxi they share after the party, and then he goes home with her that night. They wake up and realize what they have done and try to forget it happened, but soon they both realize that they can’t, they both have strong feelings for each other and they continue to spend time alone together when Darcy isn’t around. Rachel tells her good friend Ethan (played by John Krasinski) about everything and he tries to convince Rachel that she deserves to be happy and that she will regret everything if she doesn’t do anything and keeps allowing herself to be strung along by Dex. Meanwhile Dex is very conflicted and avoids  making a final decision between Rachel and Darcy until Rachel gives him an ultimatum.

I wouldn’t call it your typical romantic comedy because this movie travels to a different place than most of it’s counterparts. Most movies and even real life situations, with a story line of  ”girl falls for a taken man”, will usually have that girl’s feelings being shamed, invalidated, and chalked up to being just a fantasy, due to the fact that her crush is unavailable. Then, in a typical story, she is convinced that it wasn’t meant to be so she forces herself to move on, the end. But I have always felt that whole ideas as kind of  BS.  Am I the only one who feels like it isn’t always that easy? This movie portrays a different spin on things. It offers the idea that sometimes people end up with the wrong person and it also explores the idea of  ”what could have been” before it’s entirely too late. To me, that sounds like a more realistic situation, or at least just as real as anything else, but for some reason we don’t often see that kind of twist on things portrayed in the media, and it makes me wonder why.

Aside from that, I felt it was a very nice romantic comedy, or “chick flick” if you will. I can’t deny I am a sucker for chick flicks, and this one left me hooked and even surprised towards the end because I couldn’t think of a comparable movie that I have seen. If you haven’t seen it and you enjoy this type of movie then I highly suggest checking it out.

If you have seen it, what did you think of the movie and the story that it offers?

Also, is it me or is Dex the 2nd coming of Tom Cruise?